::/-/:: Heart of Sword, Soul of Light :: Still Standing Complex ::/-/::

Lonely and missing liquid eyeliner...cries

2005-01-09T16:57:00.000-08:00

*looks around, paranoid* There is a theif out there...and that bastard stole my eyeliner!!! Grrrrrness. Whoever it is...should know better than to steal a Goth's eyeliner...especially if it's liquid eyeliner that cost around $6. >< Anyways...am very lonely these days. Everyone goes to public school but myself around here, so there is no one to really chat with anymore. Unless it's either

yawns

2005-01-08T18:19:00.000-08:00

Eeeeeeeee!!! *giggle* Thanks for the new layout, Kimmy! *hugs* Yeah...was very depressed last night to the point where I couldn't sleep, so I popped myself on the internet and wrote in my diary. Woke up in the afternoon instead of 4 for a change and since my grandmother seemed to think that she was crippled, bugged the living hell out of me to take the X-mas tree down. -_-' When she takes it

Random depression spells...

2005-01-07T23:56:00.000-08:00

...*yawn* Bleh, 1:57 in the fucking morning and I can't sleep...what a surprise. Lately, my life has been consisting of waking up at 4 in the evening (I kid you not), and lingering downstairs like a ghost until someone notices me and starts bitching about my unusual sleeping habits. Truthfully, I'm not sick like they all seem to think I am. Well, at least not physically ill, anyways. I've

Gah....-_-'

2005-01-04T16:36:00.000-08:00

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile...not like many people will end up reading this anyways...-_-' Well, I went shopping at the mall the other day with the whole family (minus daddy), and mom bought me a keychain that says 'I'm trying to see things from your point of view, but I can't get my head that far up my ass.' She also got me a kick-ass necklace (a sword with a ruby and a dragon wrapped

Tomorrow is payday and I'm waiting for the last episode of WHR....-_-'

2004-12-29T20:36:00.000-08:00

-_-' Am very relieved that I got to talk to Jenna this evening, even if it was only a few lines here and there. Was very paranoid...*shakes head* *yawns* These last few days have been a complete and total drag. I set my alarm every night before I go to bed at 6:30. Of course, I wake up with the alarm, but I have to drag myself out of bed to shut it up, then I drag myself back to bed and pass

Darkness

2004-12-27T21:37:00.000-08:00

Finally got my present from V...Magic Knight Rayearth volume 1!!! =^_^= Heheh...well, today was interesting. Woke up really late, colored some, took a walk with my grandmother, came home and had a text message from Jenna. Tried to call her back but didn't get an answer, so hung up and who should walk through my door 2 minutes later? Jenna! Argh! Lol... Turns out today was Robert's

X-mas '04

2004-12-25T20:29:00.000-08:00

*yawns* Hmmm...my X-mas...*thinking* I think I'll just record because it's tradition to write about how your Christmas went...*shrug* On top of what I got from Amanda and Jenna, I got a black and white Chinese bed set with dragons and symbols on it and a beautiful satin black and red pillow with similiar Asian patterns. =^_^= I also got a wooden wall plaque with a painting on the front by my

Pain....

2004-12-23T21:22:00.000-08:00

...owwww...I'm in pain, can't you tell? Well, I'm still at Jenna's house...3rd night in a row. =^_^= Great fun that is, lol. Hmmmm...not much to tell, really. We went to the mall Tuesday and she got me a giant book on Egypt and a Little Red Apple doll from Hot Topic...Umbrae...she's the one in red, lol. =^_^= Then Jacob drove us to Dragon Lady's and Jenna got her bellybutton done...very cute. =^

Numb.............

2004-12-20T17:31:00.000-08:00

*yawns* Been awhile since I've updated here...dang, lol. This week has been a bit more stressful than the rest, but I'm doing okay. Surprisingly. Yeah, as you can guess, Amanda is still pulling her bullshit...right now, I don't know whose bullshit I hate more. Amanda's or Jacob's. -_-' But oh well... For everyone's X-mas presents, I got mom a scalp massager, a pair of penguin boxers, and a

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2004-12-13T17:49:00.000-08:00

................................................. Man...the sleepover sucked. Well, not really sucked...just...sucked, lol. Jacob pulled some bullshit Saturday night that I don't feel like discussing right now, and got pissed off and left. Then came back about an hour later and talked to Jenna in private in Amanda's room for nearly an hour. I picked up one of Amanda's steak knives and went

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2004-12-10T20:34:00.000-08:00

><> For one...it's my grandmother. What a surprise, ne? I mean, her questions...just...bloody annoying!!! ><> Truthfully, I don't think I can do anything with my life. People say I can, that I have so much going for me...what do I have going for me?! Huh?! *shakes head* You wanna know something about me? Why I sleep in? Why I don't have a serious boyfriend? Why don't I do so much school

Soldier

2004-12-06T13:28:00.000-08:00

Wow...been awhile since I've written here... Been very busy...been keeping myself non-stop trying to get my drawing techniques perfected, and I do believe I'm doing quite well. So well that I'm ignoring my school studies and constantly drawing every chance I get. So far, I've completed two Sailor Moon fan art sketches, but it feels like I've done a lot. Maybe it's just going to be a lot when I

-_-'

2004-12-01T17:01:00.000-08:00

*yawns* Another one of those days where I am rushed out of bed and my grandmother storms off, bitching about how I promised to get up earlier. I never promised her anything...I said I'd try. And I did. I give up... I just fucking give up. People seem to think that I'm their g-d-damned personal slave and that I will agree with them on every fucking thing that they say, or every fucking

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2004-11-28T20:44:00.000-08:00

Boy...a nice weekend...where oh where do I begin? Well...Jenna had invited me over to spend the night and we stayed up most of the night hanging out and she made me guess what she had boughten for herself the day before. -_-' A Sesshoumaru plushie doll, lol. Very cute. And the whole night I was up drinking my fare share of caffine and had to lay down after watching Dawn of the Dead and all

shrug

2004-11-26T13:23:00.001-08:00

Wow...nothing seriously bad has happened under this roof!!! OMG!!! It's fucking amazing!!! Mom's computer has a small virus again (I swear, she cannot take care of her computer), and the driver for her webcam wasn't working, so dad asked me a few days ago if it was alright if she used my computer a few days a week to talk or him or whatever. -_-' So mom wakes me up, wanting to know my

shrug

2004-11-26T13:23:00.000-08:00

Poor daddy...

2004-11-24T21:38:00.000-08:00

*sighs* My poor dad... I just got off the internet with him (he had to go to one of his morning meetings) and he was telling me how he still can't trust mom anymore because she has called her friend Amanda 4 times. -_-' No, not my friend Amanda...*yawns* I really feel sorry for him...he told me that everything stays between us and that I don't tell mom...so I don't. Not like I'd tell her

-_-'

2004-11-23T17:19:00.000-08:00

Ummm...let's see... >< *getting irritated already* Damn...yet ANOTHER interesting day...jeeze!! I'm surprised no one has called me a drama queen yet!! My life is already so full of it!! *sigh* Okay...to start the day off wrong, mom was trying to get my alarm to go off and ended up screwing it up badly, so when I wake up 2 hours later then what my grandmother has laid down the law for, I

Mondays...

2004-11-22T14:21:00.000-08:00

*yawns and stretches* Um...don't ya love Mondays? Given my frustrating weekened, I wake up at 5 or 6 in the morning (I always do that when I go to bed early, lol) and it felt like there was some kind of spirit in my room or something. I look at my alarm clock, check the time, ignore whatever's in my room, roll over, and went back to sleep. My alarm clock is set for 8:30, so went it's 8:30, I

My Weekend

2004-11-21T17:15:00.000-08:00

Damn, this is getting frustrating...I hate being connected to a phone line. I get kicked off whenever someone calls us or one of my blasted family members has to call someone. Just 30 minutes ago, my brother kicked me off the internet while he called mom to ask what time he needed to be home. And I had almost an entire two pages written already, and I lost 'em. >.< But anways...yeah...gonna

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2004-11-17T22:13:00.000-08:00

*yawns* I should probably hit the sack soon... *yawns again* Boy, today was another frustrating day. I've got all these graphics I gotta do, and Lori insists that I take my time with her doll, but I wanna get it done now. I need to get all of these things outta my way so I have some bloody time to myself. Oddly, my grandmother came down sick with something wierd...her head was so clogged up

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2004-11-17T22:00:00.000-08:00

Stuff...

2004-11-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

Last night was hell, lol... Me and Jenna had a long discussion over the internet about different things and what all has been going on...just...wierd stuff, lol. Mostly to do with my friend Amanda, though...I almost don't want to get started on it, lol. I'm just naturally distrustful of most all people, though. -_-' Sorry, but that's how I am. Everyone acts like their problems are the

I swear...

2004-11-13T15:47:00.000-08:00

-_-' I swear I need a break...today is the Sabbath for crying out loud!! >.< Today was very frustrating, and to top it off, my temper is getting the best of me. My grandmother is forever getting pissed off at me because I don't wake up early enough for her tastes. When she askes why I sleep in so late, what the hell am I supposed to tell her? The last time I told her I was depressed and

...

2004-11-10T16:57:00.000-08:00

.... Man, I need to type... I'm am so sick of everyone's bullshit that I just want to scream. Of course I'm pretty much dead to everyone anyways...so I suppose it shouldn't matter. Everyone expects so much of me...nevermind the fact that I'm not metally well enough to handle that much. Yeah, I supported my dad when he came home and things went straight to hell. Yeah, he leaned on me.

The Truth

2004-11-09T20:20:00.000-08:00

-_-' I know it's wrong, but damnit, I did it. Mom got of the computer a little early just a few minutes ago and didn't sign out, so I got on before the password-protected screen saver came up and looked around. Everything looks TOO normal. Way too normal. I checked out a letter that she had written to my dad and had saved in Microsoft Word...she was too radical in her religious beliefs. I

Letter From The Front

2004-11-05T21:06:00.000-08:00

Wow...I actually got a letter from dad today...I've been waiting for almost a month and I just wrote him today, about 12 hours before I got one from him! *happy...sorta* Today was wierd, though...my grandmother was really bitching at me and my little sister (Kaylee), telling us to keep our eyes out for things and stuff. (Hint, we were shopping for my mother's birthday). *shakes head* They all

Thank G-d October Is Over

2004-11-02T15:44:00.000-08:00

I'm posting just to post, of course... *looks around* Man, things have been pretty boring these past two days. *looks at her artwork* And I should start charging people for the favors they ask of me...not my friends, just the people I don't know. Oh well. I'm a nice person, lol. Well, I'm working on a set for Lori (since I don't have any money for her b-day), and I'm almost done. I just

Halloween

2004-10-31T20:07:00.000-08:00

*yawn* Yes, this is how everyone knows me. All my journal entries start with a yawn. *nods* Well, Jenna had me over and we watched 'Saw', 'The Grudge', and 'Shark Tale'...and 'Vampire Hunter D: Blood Lust' like, twice. -_-' Not saying I don't like the movie...but we never finished it. We'd watch it half-way through and then stop it. We dressed up (me, Jenna, Amanda, Veronica, and Robert)

The Grudge

2004-10-28T16:43:00.001-07:00

*yawns* Well, I saw The Grudge last weekend...granted, I don't like Sarah Michelle Gellar very much, but the movie was good. *nods* Wow...I haven't been here in quite awhile...-_-' Dad never approves of anything I do on the computer, so mom said she'd supervise my being online. =^_^= Hey, I need to be able to talk to people, too. Locking myself away in my room is only adding to my

yawn

2004-10-11T16:31:00.000-07:00

*yawn* Today was Tori's birthday...quite interesting...of course, my mother cannot resist bulling her bullshit on important dates. She pulls the bullshit first on dad's visit AND on her anniversary with him, and then she pulls more on her youngest daughter's 5th birthday. -_-' Yep, this is where I'm thinking the divorce is final. Of course, whenever I call Jenna to talk, they always get

Life

2004-10-07T16:49:00.000-07:00

I'm back...sorta... Dad said no email or internet, but he got mom a new computer with everything on it and even rebuilt mine, and mom gets to check her email, so I'm confused. My emails work, but I've not replied or touched anything. *nods truthfully* *yawns* Yeah, mom and dad almost got a divorce...but they cleared things up in a matter of 3 days...or was it 4...I don't remember. But he

Life Returning to Normal

2004-09-25T02:05:00.000-07:00

*yawn* Well, I think everything is going back to normal...sorta. Dad is due here early tomorrow morning for his R&R visit from Iraq, and I'm totally siked! *dancing around* That is, hopefully mom won't try to pull a knife out on him while he's asleep or something. *snickers* I bet she's pissed off that her spell didn't work. She wanted it to work the day she wrote it, but...as you can see, it

Meant to Live

2004-09-24T23:16:00.000-07:00

*yawns* Perhaps I should take this chance to make my life look more...normal. But just one more rant for now... I saw the note my sister was talking about. My mother wants my daddy dead for his $600,000 insurance, alright, but there's more. She wants it multiplied x3. She also wants the affections of someone named Bryan Sanders returned to her and 'wants to be with him always' I think is

A Prayer to Revive a Dead Soul

2004-09-23T04:29:00.000-07:00

Yep, that's it. I'm officially dead. Yes, my mother has finally stepped over the line. 'Bout time, ne? It was going to happen sooner or later, though. Kaylee, my new partner in crime and trustworthy little sister, told me that she was going through a wishing spell list that my mother had made. Big whoop, right? Wrong. She tells me that mom wrote down that she wanted the $600,000 life

Empty

2004-09-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

Well...my weekend was good... I thought that by having my koi over for a night I could get rid of all my pain. And it vanished while she was laying next to me. But for some reason, I had the hardest time trying to touch her. I had always been the type to grope her, but when I tried to touch her, everything was different. When I kissed her, it felt like she was stealing my breath from me. I

Quick entry...

2004-09-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

Damn, something's wrong with me... Looks like mom and dad have been getting into arguement after arguement on the internet recently. Kaylee said that mom's been crying whenever dad gets off. Found a potato with 3 needle-like devices sticking out of it and written hex down in mom's room. *rolls eyes* Recongize that spell anywhere...I had it memorized once myself. *sigh* I know I'm not

Today...

2004-09-13T01:22:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm...today was interesting... *yawns* I stayed up late last night looking at bases so I could make dolls for my Shat sisters and mom kicked me off at 1 in the morning after coming home from an outing with her friend Amanda. -_-' The one I'm sure who is responsible for turning her to a witch. >.<> Mom took Kaylee out to get black hair dye (and amazingly, she looks good with it! ^_^) and

Mmmm...9/11...

2004-09-11T01:36:00.000-07:00

Oh, today should prove to be interesting. No sleep tonight because I can't bring myself to go to bed, so I'm up and looking through blogskins. *nods* All are very interesting, and I'm bookmarking several that I like so that I can revise whenever I feel I need to. *nods again* Yes, I'm one of those people who likes change once and awhile, lol. Man, today's gonna suck really bad. I need sleep,

Sorry 2004

2004-09-10T21:46:00.000-07:00

Man, do the lyrics to 'I Hate Everything About You' ever sound familiar. *shakes head* Not that much of everything is in regards to myself, just...other stuff. *sighs* Yeah, everyone says they don't know me, that I've changed. Have I really? Did I really change so much that my own sister is able to claim that she doesn't know me anymore? Was I supposed to bloody stay the same after such a big

Need to vent...

2004-09-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

*listening to 'My Immortal* Man, I thought I hated this song... These days nothing much has been happening...we somehow managed to contract another email virus, so I can't check my Hotmail or Yahoo! and I was supposed to be doing something with Jenna today (not in that way), but it didn't work out. I kept trying to call her, but no one was picking up or anything, so I just kinda gave up.

Catching Up

2004-08-28T03:41:00.000-07:00

I think yesterday's entry summed up my rant for the next week or two...unless something else happens. -_-' And knowing my luck, it probably will. *yawns* Ah, Saturday. Hopefully I won't miss any of my shows. I'm supposed to be going to the mall today to get my bird, but that remains to be seen. Apart from not being able to completely clean my room due to a serious case of fatigue, mom has

Freckles

2004-08-27T22:30:00.000-07:00

*yawns* Man, I seem to be doing that a lot lately, lol... *humming the theme song to Rurouni Kenshin* Man, that was such an awesome show! *is cursing Cartoon Network for taking it off the air* I never got to see the whole bloody series, either! *pouts* That means I have to buy everything...thank G-d for Suncoast, lol. Hmmm...I got two character profiles done today and I'm working on my

Kicked

2004-08-26T10:31:00.000-07:00

Ah...back on the computer... Mom kicked me off a few hours ago, so I'm back on now...*evil laughter* She has errands to run...there's something wrong with our dumbass dog, Lucy. -_-' She's beautiful, though...she's part lab, chow, husky, and wolf. ^^ And she's black...but to those of you who know me truly, I hate her with a passion. She's annoying as all hell, too. But I love her...ah, a love/

F-cked Up Schedule

2004-08-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

*yawn* Man, today was a drag. Mom kicked me off the computer early like she usually does, but since I couldn't get back to sleep, I stayed up and arranged all of my Duel Monsters cards. I organized them by Ritual Monsters, Fusion Monsters, Monsters, Magic and Spell, and Trap. Then I put a piece of paper in front of each section to show how many cards I had in each section, and then how many of

First Entry

2004-08-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

Today was interesting... Today my brother got me some card sheets and two new Yu-Gi-Oh! decks; Kaiba's and Yugi's. *dancing around* I finally got 'em, lol! ^^ I now have the Red Eyes Black Dragon, The Dark Magician, Fire Sorcerer (although it's only a Level 4 card, it's my favorite), and now the Blue Eyes White Dragon. My brother has two of them, and I offered to trade one of his cards for my

::/-/:: Heart of Sword, Soul of Light :: Still Standing Complex ::/-/::

Lonely and missing liquid eyeliner...*cries*

*yawns*

Random depression spells...

Gah....-_-'

Tomorrow is payday and I'm waiting for the last episode of WHR....-_-'

Darkness

X-mas '04

Pain....

Numb.............

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Soldier

-_-'

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*shrug*

*shrug*

Poor daddy...

-_-'

Mondays...

My Weekend

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Stuff...

I swear...

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The Truth

Letter From The Front

Thank G-d October Is Over

Halloween

The Grudge

*yawn*

Life

Life Returning to Normal

Meant to Live

A Prayer to Revive a Dead Soul

Empty

Quick entry...

Today...

Mmmm...9/11...

Sorry 2004

Need to vent...

Catching Up

Freckles

Kicked

F-cked Up Schedule

First Entry

Lonely and missing liquid eyeliner...cries

yawns

shrug

shrug

yawn